Engaged and Enraged

I am not good at many things. Surprisingly, given my job, other people's stress is the number one thing at which I am not good. I work in a social service environment. My job, the department and the agency I work for, exist to handle/assist/serve the lives of people who are by definition (poor) stressed out.

So why, in my personal life is this such an issue? There are those who would say it is because of my job. But in truth, I would have to counter, that I have always been like this. I am, at heart, a people pleaser. Stressed out people are not pleased.

By the way, I'm engaged.

My botrothed (I like that word) is under a surprising amount of stress, not related to our relationship. Though certainly "in addition to" our new engagement and the unknown future, commitment thus now made, lives. Neither he nor I am handling that well.

I have a beautiful ring and the promise of a beautiful future.

I am prone to want to runaway though. Run from the stress. Thus I am easily enraged. Because then I have a reason to run. Not that I have anywhere to go. But it is just in flight, there is freedom and relief from the stress. Help us all.